Last Chance!

First of all, I'm officially a university student now! I have complex feeling for this stage of life. Although its something that I'd been waiting for quite a long period, but when the day come, actually I felt like, everything happens very fast~~~ 

In Uni, I meet different people everyday.. Everyday new faces. Unlike old days in secondary school, although everyday meet different faces, yet we still know one another... The campus is very big that, even though I have friends study in the same campus, same faculty, same block, we haven't met each other coincidentally... Hope the day comes...  

Luckily, I met a bunch of nice coursemates from other places.. About the lectures and tutorial classes, I still manage to catch up.. Everyday after class, lecturers' face and voice during lectures will pop-up in my mind, and my revision start..

Its a short trimester that have teaching for 7 weeks. After 7 weeks, the most horrible thing come >>> EXAMINATION!!!!!  urghhh.... I think I have exam-phobia...

Anyway, before I start my university life, people around me keep giving me good advice and encouragement, I really appreciate each and everyone of them. My friends and I promise one another to do our best this time, no more excuses, no more laziness, no more dragging work... This is our last chance. I need to bear in mind everyday, procrastination is the thief of time. Time is precious. If I myself doesn't care about it, nobody will bother.. Every decision must be made by me, myself and I precisely.

I'd read through my friend's blog earlier before updating mine, I was so touch and each and every pieces of memories appear in my mind, reminded me of Form 6 life. Its a hard time for me to struggle throughout Form 6 life, but finally everything is a past tense... Past is just a past, let it past, let it go. Sometimes I miss my old days. But I can’t go back, and even if I went back, I would feel sorry for missing out the life that I’m living now. 

I want to find back my own, the one who like to study, sing, and laugh. Because I am who I am, its TXH. I'm on my way. Fight for tomorrow! 为明天而奋斗！내일을위한 투쟁! 

I won't give up!

Since u already give up on me, I won't argue with u anymore.
If u wish to, u can just get out from my life. Without u, I still have my spirit support. U are nothing to me anymore. Ignore.

I won't give up, although I'd gone through so much of failure and imperfect, but I know this is just a beginning. I have my own value. This value is how I value myself by using my own way, not u. Who are u?
I have courage that just enough for me to move on my life, to carry on what to do next, I don't have much left for the task "give up". I am who I am. Just let me live the way I wish. I know myself better than anyone in this world.

Next step: appeal.

What's next: further study.

Fighting! I know I can! I believe in myself.

new~

another new drawing…
used up 1 hour to finish. Normal case to a beginner like me…

new hobby

new hobby, be good to me.
Lately I feel very 'empty', lonely, lost, quiet…
How about my future?

Pick up a test on phone app, called 'depression test'. Result: major depression. Really?

Think again. I just don't get the offer from public university, I still have my future at other university. Stop thinking those negative things! ! I shouldn't be like this. Although other people who get the offer will look down on my that keep dropping these years. Should I care? Anyway, I just want to find myself back.

돌라와조 I want you back back back back back... Back back back back back... 빠리 돌라와! 나 바보 안니요.화이팅!나 할수있어!나 행운 필려해요! 하늘님 행운 주세요 ...

Be bright!

my way

If I can't do great things, then do small things in great way.
Find the old me back.
Old me, wait for me, I'm on my way.
New me, just shut up and follow me.

Fighting! It's just the beginning. Take it easy but with care.

F.R.E.E.Z.E... V.O.L.C.A.N.O.

It's been a long long time I didn't update my blog...

Many things had happened during this period.

My life totally change... 

Semester 3 had started quite a while, Semester 1 results even had out, now waiting for Semester 2's.

Need to resit for Semester 1's, totally mad! Semester 3 + Semester 1... T.T

Although time had spent for study, yet nothing went good. Wondering is it the luck or fate of mine is bad? Or this is just a starting point of a challenge? I believe I'd done well, but the result indeed disappoint me... I'd tried my best, but turns out nothing, and even looked down by others (some they thought they are brilliant!). Compare and contrast... upside down.... Really cried for it, sometimes other thought come across my mind, even extreme negative ones.. no more tomorrow? I do rethink that my decision for current condition is brilliant or stupid, since I'd pulled myself into a endlessly-black hole, no chance for turning back. Think back the times that I'd really enjoyed my study, but now things had changed, 180 degree rotation. The current situation makes me feel bad when think about my ambition and future. Will it turn out better? Or remain or even worse? 

I'd put effort in study, yet when during exam, it totally blank out. Even the question that had been done for several times that should use the same method, I still can't come out a final solution. WHY?? It's kind of sad... :'(

Others are improving, but I think I'm the only one that dropping. Rusty, useless brain!

Still a big problem for my skin appeared during this critical, complicated war. Already suffered more than 3 months, plus during that time, exams... Not feeling well. @.@

Stress make me go mad easily, please be good to me. Beware of me, I'm like a volcano now. Whenever, wherever, whatever, whoever.... CAUTION!

#STPM2012/2013  #stress  #mad  #volcano  #emotional  #goodluck  #godblessme  #pleasebegoodtome