F.R.E.E.Z.E... V.O.L.C.A.N.O.

It's been a long long time I didn't update my blog...

Many things had happened during this period.

My life totally change... 

Semester 3 had started quite a while, Semester 1 results even had out, now waiting for Semester 2's.

Need to resit for Semester 1's, totally mad! Semester 3 + Semester 1... T.T

Although time had spent for study, yet nothing went good. Wondering is it the luck or fate of mine is bad? Or this is just a starting point of a challenge? I believe I'd done well, but the result indeed disappoint me... I'd tried my best, but turns out nothing, and even looked down by others (some they thought they are brilliant!). Compare and contrast... upside down.... Really cried for it, sometimes other thought come across my mind, even extreme negative ones.. no more tomorrow? I do rethink that my decision for current condition is brilliant or stupid, since I'd pulled myself into a endlessly-black hole, no chance for turning back. Think back the times that I'd really enjoyed my study, but now things had changed, 180 degree rotation. The current situation makes me feel bad when think about my ambition and future. Will it turn out better? Or remain or even worse? 

I'd put effort in study, yet when during exam, it totally blank out. Even the question that had been done for several times that should use the same method, I still can't come out a final solution. WHY?? It's kind of sad... :'(

Others are improving, but I think I'm the only one that dropping. Rusty, useless brain!

Still a big problem for my skin appeared during this critical, complicated war. Already suffered more than 3 months, plus during that time, exams... Not feeling well. @.@

Stress make me go mad easily, please be good to me. Beware of me, I'm like a volcano now. Whenever, wherever, whatever, whoever.... CAUTION!

#STPM2012/2013  #stress  #mad  #volcano  #emotional  #goodluck  #godblessme  #pleasebegoodtome

E.X.A.M.I.N.A.T.I.O.N.

My time spend with the books will be long-lasting and no ending story.

This term's trial exam, more than half of my spirit had gone. The TOUGH questions are really tough. Most of us in school GG.

The Mathematics T, wow, so tough, the paper that i used is far more less than AddMaths in form 4 and 5. Actually I can't think of the days after this. Haiz.

Drenched's lyrics: When minutes become hours, and days become years.

XH's lyrics: When passing become losing, and LL become GG.

*LL = Lulus

 GG= Gagal

Eyes close tightly. But not sleeping.

Those days study with the earphones, listening to the FM radio, and mp3. Syok! K-pop! <3 font="font">

Tomorrow having the last test ~ MUET. Not fully prepared. One more GG.

But after tomorrow, I will have a new phone. This will be my very first phone. Must select precisely. :D

Sadly, the budget, more than 60% is from my pocket money. Not fair! T.T 

After purchasing the phone, my pocket will have a big hole on it, stained with some 'blood'. No choice.

If there's an option, I won't choose this path.

Still left 1 month from now before the First Term STPM examination. 

The timetable of the First Term Exam.

5-11-2012 (Monday) : Pengajian Am (8.00am - 10.00am)

6-11-2012 (Tuesday) : Mathematics T (2.30pm - 4.00pm)

7-11-2012 (Wednesday) : Biology (8.00am - 9.30am)

8-11-2012 (Thursday) : Chemistry (8.00am - 9.30am)

Sincerely hope that everything goes well. I will stay away from the PC for about 1 month. Will update more after the 'war'. 

All the best and good luck to all STPM candidates.

God Bless. Amen.

EXAM!

Exam is coming. Just keep it up to strike for the best! Fighting! <3 font="font">

I want to ignore unwanted things. Just get out of my mind. No distractions until the final exam is over. 

My bro further his studies in UniMAP, Perlis. Quite sad to hear that he fever in past few days. Just wish him all the best. And next week he is coming back. Then I can 'fight' with him though! HA!

I don't think my maths assignment can be finished perfectly. Eyes closed. Haiz.

STPM subjects: 
1) Pengajian Am
2) Chemistry
3) Biology
4) Mathematics T
5) MUET

Just open eyes widely and say Hi to tomorrow.
Learn to LOL.

And I really get to know some sakai friends in my class. Everyone is just typically normal until I know them! HAha. What a surprise! :D
This is the place that I'll stay for 1 more years.

Fighting fighting! :D

The Reason

Lately, I really not in a good mood, after I figured out something that I don't know. Until yesterday, 6 August 2012, I know your problem. I keep thinking in my mind, "Do I abandoned or neglected you?" My answer is easy, 50% yes. I have no idea to say this thing to you. I'm not gutsy! This might haunted me until I get a answer, I know. Because this, I don't think I want to smile and talk, but I feel like I want to cry today. But friends keep entertaining me, finally I put this aside, laugh with them. After school, back home. Alone in home, start thinking back the problem. The problem still there. I feel terrible.


The Reason 


I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear


I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

5-5-2012

It's the end for my part time job. From 9 Dec 2011 to 5 May 2012. It quite a long term, almost half a year. My brain, rusty. Something that need to remember, take long hours to 'digest', hopefully my brain getting used to everything like before SPM, can 'digest' more and fast.

2 May I'd started my first Form 6's tuition for Mathematics T. Actually still can catch up, since it almost like Add Maths that I knew it since Form 4. But unfortunately, when I do homework at home, I realized that, OMG, I can't really do it. It really consume time. Scratching head over and over again.
3 May started my first journey to Ipoh for Chemistry tuition. Awesome I think at first. But slowly, after the lesson, I started feel like ' am I having a wrong decision?' Went back home and do some homeworks, OMG once again, I can't do it! Some more got experiment theory to do. Haiz. T.T  I can't think about my Biology. *.* no eyes see. tutup mata.

Now really waiting school open on 8 May, next week Tuesday. Quite excited, new school for me. Die, new lessons and challenges for me.

Add oil and good luck anyway~ =D

New Target!

I'd been study hard, but the result is almost reach my target.
1A+, 3A, 5B+, 1B

Now I have my new target, STPM, I aim for 4 flat, 4 flat is my new target. Biology, Chemistry, Pengajian Am, and Mathematics T. MUET, I'm coming to you too.


Piano Grade 8 theory, I'll come to you when all is done well. Wait for me.


Gambateh! =)

I ♥ Big Bang!

Big Bang is back! =)
Their 5th mini album had released on 29th February 2012.

BLUE

Big Bang~ ♥

 G-Dragon with long hair..

 Seungri~

 T.O.P.! 

Daesung~

Taeyang~

5th mini album track list...

Listening to Big Bang's new song~ 

Have a nice day~ Cheers! =)